I AM A WALL

I AM A WALL

When I moved to Riverside County a little over 3 years ago, I went back to doing the Love God Greatly study and with a very serious God fearing woman named Pat. She took my daughter and I in but we really had to follow rules to be part of her group. It was good for us. I am still doing that with her but in the midst of it I decided to find the craziest christian girls online to follow. I didn't want to be part of some group catering to my disaster. These girls were straight forward and to the outsiders, they would think they were a bit rude to be honest... sounds like me. It isn't fun to be told we are wrong is it? Well... we mostly are wrong when we follow our evil hearts. The bible is clear on a lot. We are not. We always change, the bible is consistent and when men aren't being bold the women step up. Sometimes women step up anyway and have to get the nail and hammer out and hand us some warm milk to relax and hide us under a rug and get the job done to crack our skulls. That is what the bible showed me anyway. It helped me. If that makes no sense at all call me up, take me to coffee and I will explain more.

At the time, I was off and on with those women reading through the bible as well with a pastor I enjoy. It was an intense time, so much that I had to stop the plan with the women and slow down 500% because I needed the meat. I couldn't just do milk. I am too old for that, I needed a meal... I was all bones and needed all the nourishment that I HAD DEPRIVED MYSELF OF FOR SO MANY YEARS.

Anyway I am still going through the bible... I have not finished but I am so so close! I have slowed down but still chipping away at it since I am not home as much and have to tend to my daughter's needs. My point? It had been in my heart to do something with music and team up with bible thumpers for a long time. I had no idea how it would happen but it has begun. The website I AM A WALL stemmed from reading in Song of Songs. Yeah, the raciest book in the bible, who would have thunk? It is basically about me and any other believers loving God instead of the world's philosophies. I am a wall, a wall is protection and the Word is protection. When I stray from the Holy Bible, I choose to not be protected. I help others, they help me by preaching the Word to me so I stay protected. Why get offended when there is one truth that always is true? Everything else is counterfeit and a lie that will only bring pain and ultimately death eternally. So...

The family at the end of Song of Songs had asked, what do we do with our sister, if she is promiscuous we will build a wall around her and if she isn't we will add jewels to her. The women steps up and says I am a wall. So I know we all (men and women) can stray from the Word.

Something about music and the Word, not just creating the song and studying the Word but hearing others sing and see they studied to write a song is mind blowing. This is how life should be. We should be speaking in hymns. Life should be like a musical! Those songs are beautiful even when I need chastened. It is all very magical, from the greatest magician of all! The Great I Am!

I am so thankful for the few that have understood what I AM A WALL stands for. It is about a personal relationship with the LORD. It is about being washed in His Word because we can't stay clean on our own in these filthy bodies. I need it, we all need the blood and the water. Please go check it out when you can. See ya!